It Is Okay To Ask For Help 💜💜💜

 

October has been one very interesting month and interesting is my best new word for describing both pleasurable and seemingly unpleasurable happenings. We went from retrograde to eclipse and are approaching the second eclipse and you know by now that heavy, serious change is upon us and the world around us.

Energies have been low for me and I could not post any New moon in Scorpio eclipse messages but I hope that's not the case for the full moon. I had some difficulty renewing my domain subscription too so the site has been down but we are back in motion! The drama behind renewing the domain subscription inspired me to write this post and share my experience with someone out there who might relate.

It is okay to ask for help. 

For some funny reason, my debit card could not process the payment for my website and it really bothered me. It bothered me even more because procrastinating the payment last year led to the loss of wokewifey.com, causing me to eventually purchase wokewifey.org. This led to losing my advertising right and I had to begin from scratch to eventually get approved for Adsense.

I got a reminder that my site would be reclaimed on the 4th of November and it really made me unsettled. It then occured to me that I could actually ask someone to help me pay with their card. Simple right? Well not as simple for me. I was once again faced with one of mhy biggest fears...asking someone to help me out.

What is it about asking for help that makes me so uncomfortable? I'd like to think that I always help people, so why am I unable to ask and receive help myself? Is there a narrative in my head about people who ask for help? Is this a trauma response from my childhood where I may not have received as much assistance as I shoud have as a child? Am I scared of being turned down? Does the word "No" scare me so much that I'd much rather not go through the process of asking at all?

All these questions flooded my mind and I hope to keep questioning myself, to help me get to the root of this trauma and heal fully. Anyway, I braced myself and reached out to a a very trusted friend (one of those that you may not speak to in a long time but know that they will always be there for you and you, them). Not only did he agree, he sent me all his card details to do it myself (not sure why he trusted I would not go on a shopping spree though 😅) and it is a kindness I will never ever forget.

I had a choice, to wallow in my "I'll fix it" attitude, or reach out to someone for support. I understand that life and its events can shape us to hold certain outlooks but it is important to know that the reason why we are all here at the same time is to be here for one another and help the next person get through life in the easiest way possible.

You are love, you are loved, you are loving and you deserve every wonderful thing life has to offer you through the connections in your life. Even more so, you are very well designed to ensure the same happens for others.💜💜💜