Six months ago today, my mother breathed her last. Days before the day, "I had made a post on tips to manage/ maximize the eclipse energy, not knowing I was indeed one of the people who would need the tips the most. Maybe one day, I will be able to unpack all these raw emotions in writing but until then, I will carefully hopscotch on the tender surface of my healing heart.
We are days before the bottom half and final eclipse in Libra and I suddenly need to teach myself not to attach fearful expectations to an event that will forever haunt me as the period during which my mother died.
A few days ago, I visited my nail tech as I was due for a new set (because I had picked my skin so badly with my natural nails). I hopped onto my very well-curated collections on IG, scrolled through a few nails and finally settled on a simple one with a bow design. Nail tech agreed she could do it and we were good to go.
A few acrylic layers later, I notice the nails are not looking anything close to what I had shown her. Classic me would have would have stopped her right there in her strides and rerouted to get the exact thing I pictured in my head, but no. I kept mute and decided to be surprised at what it would be. Did I feel uncomfortable? Heck yeah, because if it went south, I would have to live with an ugly set for a few weeks, that's if I did not try to remove it immediately, which would likely cost us more money or strong emotions. I sat through the discomfort without a lot of expectations, waiting patiently for the final outcome.
Long story short, I ended up with a wonderful set of artistic nails that still had my bow detail. Was I unsure if I liked it as soon as we were done? Definitely. However, stepping out of the image I had and allowing myself to see the set I got from new lenses, I could see the perfection that it eventually turned out to be.
This post is not about my nails. It is asking you and I to set ourselves free of the expectations we have and to allow the Grand Designer do their job. As the Bible correctly asserts, God is able to do exceedingly above what we ask of "him" but the crucial part we play in this dynamic is to trust that the result might not be exactly what we want but what we exactly need.
The unfolding events, especially those that happen around eclipses like this one might not be the most pleasant but it is a part of your story that somehow intertwines with that of other people; each part highlighting the hallmarks of your destiny. Stay put, stay locked in, with more observation and less attachment to the outcome, while strongly believing that everything is happening in your best interest.
Nothing happens to you. It happens for you.
Have a beautiful Solar Eclipse in Libra.
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